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i was stitched lips and a flightless raven heart-
all sex and a contorting spine;
his own lips engraving 'kiss me's' on empty stars.

& between you and me: i feared his teeth,
& tongue, & honest organs-
with skin that begged, 'please, don't touch me.'

don't touch me.
don't fucking touch me.


i am not soft.

there is a war raging in my lungs,
screaming through the uncharted galaxies
of my wanderlust heartstrings.

i am not soft.

i am lust, & war, & envy—

i am sin,
        
         crooked, misshapen,
& the kind of prosetry yet to be proofread.

—but he wanted to claim my guarded ghost eyes
and crossed legs.

'just—let me hold you.'

his callused hands were cancer,

my still body, a clock.
Personal.

Androphobia: Fear of men.

However, I'm not sure how accurate this is.
As it's not exactly /men/ as it is their touch that sometimes makes my skin crawl.

Sorry for the repetition.

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ScorpionHoliday Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013
what an interesting fear. I love the poem and it's power to explain the way it feels to be mortified by something. I can understand that fear honestly. Men have not been kind to me, and the ones who have were just trying to sleep with me.

I don't understand it anymore.

my first boyfriend, I couldn't even hold his hand without feeling sick to my stomach. I don't think I have that fear, but I know what I wasn't for a long time, and what I wasn't was...interested in dudes.
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner May 31, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I wasn't either, and I believed there was something wrong with me.
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ScorpionHoliday Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2013
me too. I used to be disgusted in myself. I tried really hard to be someone I'm just not. it is still hard to be me sometimes. I care too much about what others think.
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Sigma-Echo-Seven Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2013  Student Writer
"don't touch me.
don't fucking touch me.

i am not soft.

there is a war raging in my lungs,"

It's been said before, but I really can't overemphasize the sheer force behind these words. Magnificent.
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so very much.
This is a very angry piece, but I find it to be one of my best.
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x-TheBasicFlaw-x Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2012
It reminds me of trying to rehabilitate yourself after abuse, rape, relationships gone wrong... It's a lovely commentary on sex and people and the profound effects of touch.
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Wow, yes--exactly. Thank you!
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tiajones Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
"& between you and me: i feared his teeth,
& tongue, & honest organs-
with skin that begged, 'please, don't touch me.'

don't touch me.
don't fucking touch me.

i am not soft."
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:heart:
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Eragonlover1 Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2012
Wow, I particularly admire the lines 'of my wanderlust heartstrings' and 'his callused hands were cancer' you're creating a tapestry here with your words, it's breathtaking.
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
The first you mentioned is my favorite line! :heart:
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TonitesEntertainment Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You have a brilliant way of weaving words.
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!
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winterkate Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012  Student Writer
Oh my God. Don't be sorry for the repetition. This is beautiful.
You're breaking your patterns.
And it is ever so lovely.


Also, I want to scream this sometimes.
Don't fucking touch me.
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I'm really trying!
I think the more personal I get with a piece, the better it gets.
And thank you!

I do too--and I have. </3
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winterkate Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2012  Student Writer
Both of us, hon. Both of us.
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DamagedHomewrecker Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
this is absolutely gorgeously real. and the imagery and the power and the tone and the emotion and everything, wow. just wow.
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Wow! Thank you so much for this. Coming from you that means a lot! :)
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Yaoi-Addict-Uke Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2012
So much love/adoration for you . . . you don't even know . . . <3
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Pointerofreality Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2012
Why does the touch of men make your skin crawl?
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Bad experiences in my life, I guess.
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Pointerofreality Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2012
): damn that sad
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Adonael Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I like how the writing gets smaller as if it wants to be said, but is somehow repressed, buried deep down. That was clever.

I also liked the strong sense of identity and the metaphor at the end was grand!

Bravo.
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xxAiko-chanxx Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2012
Breathtaking as always and filled with truthful emotion. I love it <3
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!
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Ninefiftin Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
This is brilliant...
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!
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Ninefiftin Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You're very welcome :)
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Kymira12 Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is just so gorgeous! I loved the last two lines. They're beautiful images and I love how they tie up the whole poem.
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much.
I had a very hard time with the ending.
( Wasn't sure how to end it. )
But hearing this makes me feel a lot better about it. :)
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emilyanne125 Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2012
This is so fantastic I'd like to frame it in my room, with your name on it of course.
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craneHARDCORE Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2012   General Artist
Wow this is fantastic... I really can relate to this a lot. It's very well-written.
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!
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craneHARDCORE Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012   General Artist
You're welcome!
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Spagettimoon Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
love it!!!!!!!!
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!
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Atikkin Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2012  Student General Artist
:clap:
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:heart:
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SmokinCute Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Very intense. I could definitely feel the emotion in each word. <3 So much pain in this piece, but so well written.
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you, glad you enjoyed it regardless.
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SmokinCute Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
<33
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JoeyBelle18 Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Beautiful. Very personal. I'm officially your biggest fan. :) I can really relate to this one. I was always a runner (relationship-wise) when I was younger. I'd get really scared once things started getting intimate. I don't know why, I just did.
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I was a runner too.
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JoeyBelle18 Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
great to have someone you can finally relate with :)
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Yes! :heart:
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shehrozeameen Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I have a question: how did you change the font in your work, and what fonts are available to write in (whatever you used that is)?
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I just use < tt > TEXT < / tt > (without spaces) for the font change.
and < sub > TEXT < / sub > to make some of the font appear smaller.

When you go to submit art, and click 'Add Text', there is a list of HTML codes you can use.
I suggest just playing around with it. That's what I did. :)
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shehrozeameen Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Alright. I'm saving this comment its a good idea :)

:hug: thank you.
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You are very welcome. :)
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shehrozeameen Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:)
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