a snap of bellsa. i have never brushed the soft skin of Genesisi have not.but i know that wild horses roam the spacebetween extremities, that is why i sleep with eyesclosed, so i am not withoutoh, i am not within.b. does summer wonder the touch of frost,does it feel the flake of blossoms as springtime peels awayor do my eyes deceivedo you think its smile is as soft as its skies x. she does not step she does not seei do not taste the silver synapse clapsed between
Missing BonesWe spent our nights star gazingon the top of that local bar on 5th street. You said you loved me by night,that no star or moon in any given universecould compare to me; that we were lost warriorssearching for a home within the roots of one another.I believed myself a wandering ghost among the living, searching for missing bones and the warmth of another's grave.You shook me then, kissing me where it hurt most-just to test a theory. You whispered,"Like dead birds, you are not faceless; your rib cage has a meaning."And I believed I loved you thenunderneath the moon and starstipsy on your smile and your wordsa
Night CattleShe owns her flesh.Old goddess, beautiful decay-draping along the length of her boneslike a Shakespearean sonnet.When the graveyard lurkerscome to pray upon a carcass,they will howl their mournful sorrowto the earth below their claws.Devouring her, respectfully.She, with an aged bird spirit:unable to be caged.
Stream Of ConsciousnessI've wanted to write everythingFor a while now, it's something I've yearned forBut I don't think I canI wish I could blab just a Stream of consciousnessBut I don't think I canThere are a lot of things I don't think I can do;Live my lifeGo to schoolSucceed at anything (Other than being a cutter)I am so sickI'm so proud of my cutsI make hundreds in a sitting nowAnd it's not unusual that it's more than once a dayI like to look at my skin,Turning into not-exactly-skinI'm holy, but no one worships meExcept my reflection I supposeMirrors and picturesOnly reflect the breaks I made in my skinA scabby armor bu
ersatzyour wake is the warmlanguid whorl of a sachet-lattémorning after,gone when six a.m. rain swirlspavement scents of whiskeysmoke& a careless caress awayunder cinnamon-sugar grace --and it was only ever this:you were lovelyby trembled halflight, when you almost hadmy summer-boy's eyes.
Witch TrialI believe I was a ginger headed poet in a past life,who wrote love through magik spellsburning candle wax, whispering incantations under a full moon and painting pale, naked flesh with dirt and ash.Dancing with ghostly ravens through flames, to the thumpthumpthump of my storm heart,as it became one with the earth.I roared my passions and my glory to the heavens above, laughing like a crazy eyed crone for the sakeof those who feared me.My witches tongue, hissing, 'Come hither!'as heat licked my shoulders like an old lover, come home.
Bookstore ReligionLurking in the shadows of roses,I formed my own Gods,my own constellationsbetween the thorns in my teeth.Naming them after charactersin a November's love story,Porphyria, Dorian, and Gatsby-I tasted earth and copper pennies.Choking on peppermint and oils-out of my mouth in rambles ofhideous beauty:I recited poetic prayers to the classics.
Are you Gay?My heart threatens to gag me.Needing to exorcise a demon,these speechless fingers trembleagainst silent computer keys.Voice hiding, far offin one of those dusty shelve bookswith the yellowed pages, smelling ofage and wisdom's of years pastone finds in a 25 cent bookstore.I think I'm dying, gagging and chokingon words that lock themselves willingly awaybehind a worthless, self loathing poets tongue."I don't know."I. don't. fucking. know.I must hate myself, or this demon that breathesits hot, angry whispers inside my headwould set me free from a castled prisonbuilt within the marrow of these cowardly bones.Sp
Sky EyesDesert hands tell talesof a hundred arid summers, butyou are no longer as cloudless as they(there is a storm creeping through blue, blue veins).But tell the sky to keep her sorrow,that grey cascade blurring againsteyelids and horizons;and suppress her misbegottendroplets, seeping into the soddenground underfootfor there is still sun in your sky eyes.
AndrogynyWhy is everything broken down?Sorted Bit by bit,And plastered with a label,Pushed in to fit,What are you and who am I?Memories and dreams,Beyond my mind,Not so cut and dried,When all your lines are blurred,What is this life?When you care,What does it matter?Intentions and thoughts,Or am I only black and white?Do you love me?For I am only shades of grey,
ConstellationShe is dream dust,too bitter or wisefor her own good.A timeless dragon's soulsomewhere inside ascaled shell, burningthe silence in her bonesalive, honeysuckle sweet.She collects fireflies only toset them free at 3am,crying to an uncaring moon.& she's begging for the starsto take her away,make this house a homerigged in the sky.To me,She is already naked feverswimming through the cosmos& I orbit her.
It's all about her,-I had never wished to know the moon,or the burning gaze of her lover.I am merely a forest of silences,old dogwoods & untamed hair.-But, I made a promiseto a bone collector once.He could have my spine,my kneecaps, &one flowered rib,wrapped & bowed-uplike a present-if he could fall in lovewith things that slip through his fingers:Me,the sea,shooting stars.-“It would be a sin to love you,my dear sweet wolf;you will always cry for the moon.”
Hear me howl.Tell me again, Father,I’m the perfect daughter-when all I want to beis the crescent moonsresting like strong soldiersin the grooves of my palms.I am but(outgrown)lonely bones,quaking with frostbite,numbed with rage.A wolf's jaw:locked, teeth tearinginto the chilled fleshof your neck.
Sun Child,I am freezing& I am hungryfor fever’s lips-her inky fingerspurginga dry stomach.My body is an ocean,my limbs, but oars.My tongue & teeth,a life raftkeeping this madnessfrom sinking into blue.Offering up 102 degreesof skin;You would thinkI had something to say.
A lion among sheep.There are ghosts in my bloodstreamkissing concrete cells &the bedroom eyes of nerve endings.( foreign wordsengraved into my marrow, birds in my chest& wars not yet fought between my hips. )I've taken myself apart every nightsince I learned how to swallow a penwithout gagging;limb by steady limb.Passed around by grabby hands,a sold, & borrowed daughter;I am a lion among sheep,drunk on life & ink.
Muse:She corrodes star shapes intothe hearts of sleeping poets,slowly, methodically.