1/1/2014

Okay, now that I feel better, I can talk about 2013.
Which could quite possibly be dubbed the worst year of my life, thus far.
But, my personal life aside, I did have an amazing year on DA!

I switched from Banshee-X to this account on March 30th 2013.
( Let it be noted the premium name change was put into affect a few days later! -_- )
This was all thanks to my good friend PoeticSins who pushed me to make the change,
and I am so grateful and glad I did!  Thank you!

I managed to receive two DD's this year, and my first two ever!

respiration.i am shipwrecked fever;
kerosene sleep,
& she is denied oxygen.
i taste sirens on the shore
of her collarbones,
& salt-licked sea limbs.
but, it's the natural disaster
wrapped around her coral spine
that really has my lungs
                           s
                             p
                           i
                              n
                            n
                              i
                            n
                              g. Mabonthere are dead leaves
sprouting from her amber spine,
reaching with child-fingers
to devour the sun.
her skin is freezing,
seeping winter through
november pores.
seeking warmth,
the whiskey tongues
of godless boys
wish to decipher
the atlas of her thighs.
counting the sleepy fireflies
alight in her lungs- there is
wanderlust churning & warming
her frostbitten heartstrings.
swinging pendulum hips,
"I am the tease of autumn flames.
I breathe in mint sunsets,
& gasoline dreams."

Thank you so much, thorns and DorianHarper!

My writing had had it's ups and it's downs, like most things.
But I think my 'Secrets Series' has been the best thing I could have started.
It brings me to tears when I get these private messages thanking me for merely writing.
I love you guys and I love this community with all my heart!

According to my statistics, You should never attack a poet, was my most commented and most favorited this year.


You should never attack a poet,we are the best at exploiting weakness.
the night you took a scalpel to my chest
& fed my heart to the stars,
you told me i could hate you
if i needed to.
with an exorcism
i tried to cast you out
of my body.  
i was contorted limbs:
the language of tongues
trying to find myself
in the cosmos
of lit kerosene fingertips,
& the kinds of habits
that only choke me at 3am -
when my eyes aren’t yet heavy
enough for sleep;
my mind tells me to do awful things.
between fucking &
i-don’t-know-who-i-am-
anymore,
you are the calories
in the mathematical equation
scribbled &
    scratched out
of me.
i think of shy moons
and i don’t eat for three days.
admit it;
you only liked me
when this poetic tongue
licked compliments
up
    & down
your scars.  
but,
space shrapnel aside-
you’re too far down now
for even the stars
to graph you into their maps.
I want everyone to know now that I try to answer every comment and every message I receive, but I get so many these days and it's honestly a bit overwhelming at times.  And still very shocking, in a good way.  Like damn, little ol' me gettin' all this attention. What?  Is this real life? So I will say it here, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!

Also, I've meet some wonderful people along the way:

TheHattersDomain My bestest best friend ever, and one of the first people I do believe I befriended on DA.  Back when I was still writing fanfiction and RPing Damon Salvatore.
dreamsinstatic is an amazing writer, and a great person in general.  Steven's words make me jealous and happy all at the same time.
momo-madness who's gallery I occasionally stalk. Her work brings me so much inspiration, and I am grateful!
Pailei who I also occassionaly stalk.   She is not only an amazing writer, but artist as well!
tiajones is by far the sweetest person on the planet, and I love her so! <3 She writes beautifully, and a bright colorful spirit.  And when I'm feeling down she always manages to bring a smile to my face!
lupus-astra is my spirit animal. She's such a lovely girl, one in which I am so happy I have the pleasure of knowing. Thank you for putting up with me!
DoktorSpankenstein And if anyone, I should be thanking Mike for putting up with me this long.  Because damnit, I'm annoying.  And he's patient, even when teasing me. 

Side note: 

Let's talk about how drunk Kayla was last night.

My nephew ( who is about 5 years older then me, -I'm adopted- ) was working as a bouncer in the bar I went to last night.
I walk in and hear "NOOO YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED IN HERE!" And I look up and see him and think "Oh shit, there goes my twerking plan."
( My drivers license says I can do what I want. lol )
Lets just say, I got free drinks because of him last night.  And that may or may not have been a good thing.

I got hit on by a drunk girl too last night, full on pushed up against a wall and practically molested.
It's all good, she had the best laugh I have ever heard in my entire life. Bahahaha



 My drunk ass was all smiles, and here my friend is looking sexy as hell.
Nope, not me...I'm still smiling:



and now:



Happy New Year, everyone!